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Girls, girls, girls

Ah, girls. I don’t claim to know what they want. In this paticular tid bit I suppose it’s also about what i want. I am not going to bullshit around. But I suppose it’s good that the girls I would like to get to know more are more complicated, for if they were so “easy” then what kind of relationship would that be?

Some might say those girls are simply more open, not nessicarily more stupid or floosy. I think it can be bother, or neither. For the girls I talk to I wish I knew what they wanted or something. I always seem to run into a complicated circle which follows:

Girl flirts with boy. Boy flirts with girl. Boy wants more from girl, girl says boy is being to forward. Boy backs off. Girl looks to other boys for interest. Boy is more assertive again, boy is ignored/rejected.

I am mostly baffled by the “you were being to forward/you wern’t being assertive enough” thing. It’s like girls don’t even know what they want. I undertand fluctuatings emotions and feelings I don’t think thats restrictive of girls, id just like to know wtf I am supposed to do when everything I try to do rangeing from trying to please them, to giving them space, doesn’t seem to do shit.

A life in the day of Keen and the friend of an Addict

It’s hard dealing with addiction. I have dealt with it myself at one time and am still comming to grips what it means to me. I have never been forced with legal action to stop my addiction but I know someone who is, and it’s very hard dealing with someone who has such a powerful addiction. They seem to be using it to deal with their problems instead of using logic and reason. For as long as I have known them they always seemed to supress their fears and doubts almost to an unhealthy level of “not careing”.

It was this “not careing” that I always admired and it helped me as I would hang out with my friend and that would allow me to not let my fear hold me. Thats why I have not given up on my friend but everytime his addiction allows his what I percieve as a rational mind to take over I wonder if it was myself who was neive to leave certain perscription medication that i need out for him to take.

I thought I could trust him but it was also honestly a test. A test to see if he really could be trusted. I have learned sadly that I cannot. He feels guilty and now I feel bad that he feels bad. I wish I didn’t feel as bad but isn’t that part of it? A long time friend betraying you you shold feel bad right? IDK,

thanks to my mom, furrican and peany for helping me through this difficult time. anyone thats not out there to offer me penis pills is welcome to comment and any advise in this situation is helpful.

WELCOME BACK TO THE FOLD ffffffff

Greetings. It’s nice to see you here. I never thought such things could be. You are percieving this message via a series of tubes. These tubes include yours and my brain which allows me to leave a message through a series of tubes, and assume at some point in reality before those tubes decay, that your brain matter will observe these light rays, and interpret them back into your brain.

I am a mapper for Sven Co-Op. My main server I play on is Peany’s Cafe.

I am a member of the SHELL:D collective.

So hello future Keen, and others. If you wish to see some of the things I have made or taken pictures of, you might want to check out:

CryoKeen’s Youtube Channel

CryoKeen’s Personal Website

CryoKeen’s Imageshack Pictures from his Maps mostly